Fragmented


For most of my life, I’ve felt separate and different. So much so that it’s as if there are bits of me scattered all about and occasionally I manage to come together to make life work.

My passions are all over the place. I’ve worked in technology for years in the company of minds that are logical, centered, pragmatic and very focused. Then there’s me…bringing these people together to convey complex information to likeminded others so that business can be done.

Professional Engineers, Mechanical & Electrical Engineers, Geologists, and Mining Engineers…the list goes on. I’d be lying if I said I can relate but to some extent, I do understand. At least, the big picture.

That’s how I work, I connect the pieces of puzzles together to convey the larger aspects of what it is that we want to accomplish. But that’s not really me…those technical brains don’t work the same way mine does. I barely understand the technology that I sell, so I rely on my technical peeps to help out. That’s their job, mine …is to make the magic happen.

All that being said, I LOVE and adore technology! I kind of get how it’s made and how it all works but only on a very high level.

But still, this isn’t really me. I’d much rather dabble in the arts. I’d much rather write poems/stories, take pictures, make cool fractals and meditate. An energy healer and intuitive – these things are also part of my make-up.

And…I also sing. Oddly enough, this is what I paid lots of money in college to learn how to do. Ha! I’m told I’m pretty good at it but it’s not where I make my living and my boyfriend doesn’t always appreciate me serenading him. My cat…hates it.

I think there is opportunity to find myself and possibly un-fragment who I need to be in this world but it’s going to take time, patience and belief on my part.

Sometimes I feel like a Picasso painting – all over the place and rather random, but also interestingly put together, different, and possibly worth getting to know.

Or not…

Picasso and I are not everyone’s cup of tea. 😉

Either way, it’s who I’m claiming as the real ME. I’m okay with it. I’m cool with not fitting in or being part of the norm. In fact, I rather like it. All the really neat people are sitting on the fringe. Not that engineers are not ‘neat’; in fact, they’re super cool. They are just part of a different fringe. I think there are many.

It takes our differences to make the world go ‘round. But it’s our likenesses that allow us to coalesce. We all have some commonalities that connect us. Just like a Picasso – different, yet connected.

**note that I’m not comparing my fragile attempts at fractals to Picasso! Just that this particular one reminded me of his work.

Moonlit Picasso

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